this year in review
-moved 2000 miles away
-went through two roommates
-got a gpa lower than 2.00
-got strep
-wasieversober
-got my number disgustingly high
-made 7 close friends
-2 piercings, 4 tattoos
-learned a LOT

carpe-omn1a
carpe-omn1a:

hi my names Becca. 
I know I’m a shitty person,
but I also know that when it comes down to it, I’m a really good person. I have a good heart and a good head on my shoulders. I care for people and would drop everything if someone needed me. 
that being said I really feel like I deserve the best I can get. I deserve someone who would drop everything for me as well. I deserve someone who puts me above other things and genuinely cares about my well being. 
and it’s really shitty when people don’t think I deserve that. I don’t deserve any less.

carpe-omn1a:

hi my names Becca.
I know I’m a shitty person,
but I also know that when it comes down to it, I’m a really good person. I have a good heart and a good head on my shoulders. I care for people and would drop everything if someone needed me.
that being said I really feel like I deserve the best I can get. I deserve someone who would drop everything for me as well. I deserve someone who puts me above other things and genuinely cares about my well being.
and it’s really shitty when people don’t think I deserve that. I don’t deserve any less.

hollywouldyouturnmeon-
1. Do not say “I love you” if you do not mean it.
2. Do not date someone just to make another person jealous.
3. Do not cheat.
4. Do not lie, not even about little insignificant things.
5. Do not date someone just because someone else is unavailable at the moment.
6. Do not play with someone’s emotions.
7. Just be a decent fucking person.
another rant no one will learn from

"god’s dead"

I said, baby, that’s all right with me.

There’s way too much going on in and outside of my head and it’s leaving me in this funky ass middle ground that I can’t seem to get out of. But there’s SO much I still need to do and I KNOW that but I can’t seem to pull myself out. I’m so depressed about it and I don’t know what to do because crying isn’t doing anything for me.

I mean I obviously know whats going on so there’s no point to rehash it or make this post even but I’m too lazy to write anymore. 

I love Tampa way too much but I fucked everything I even had going for me up so how much I love Tampa might not even matter anymore if I’m not allowed to come back and that’s the shittiest part. That effects everything. EVERYTHING. Everything from here on out. You know how shitty of a feeling that is? You know how shitty of a feeling that is that I can’t even really tell or explain that to anyone? It’s heartbreaking. I honestly think I broke my own heart.